If you could only know, the built regret that's choking my neck, with every passing day I made the choice to let you go
Oh god forgive me
And to my bastard of a son, can you forgive me too?
Just try to understand the mistakes of your father had nothing to do with you

And soon some day I'll come to terms with my ways
Son, I'll make you proud, you deserved the chance I know that now
You gave me new breath to let in, another forsaken angel rushed too quickly to heaven
I wish I knew your face, and the warmth of your skin
A ghost is all I embrace, a hollow body begins
These fucking words can never justify a thing
Just know I love you and that wont ever change.

Ill be just fine, If you promise to be okay too
Just take your time, how could I think I'd never need you?
Watching me grow, when it's all said and done
I hope that you know:

You'll always be my son

The cold murder of my own blood
The nights I lie awake wishing that he wasn't gone
A path forsaken, before he even had his chance
Too young to understand the mistakes of a man.

Trying everyday, forgetting the ghost that carry on my mistakes
Would you forgive me if you had the chance?
Could you believe me if I said id take it back?

I will not be bitter, I am better person because of the mistakes I made

Trying everyday, forgetting the ghost that carry on my mistakes
Would you forgive me if you had the chance?
Could you believe me if I said I'd take it back?

And I understand that no amount of tears I shed can bring you back, but I will not be bitter
I am a better person because of the mistakes I've made

And I can only hope that you're looking down at me from the skies, smiling because of the person you made me.